Why invest your time in a relationship that has no outcome? I need to just trust in the lord that his "food" is far better than anything food I can buy myself I feel as in this whole chapter God is telling me that my ways and my will is so insignificant compared to His. He has the food I need. The food I provide for my self is like poison. Over and over in this chapter it repeats that his will is far better than mine. All I need to do is trust the lord to make this situation glorify him. No relationship will ever be worth losing my bond in Christ.